Summary

In Part 5, Deraniyagala returned to cowering in her bed in her new apartment in New York. She had been there only a few months. As she struggled with the pain that seeing children everyday brought her, she begged for Steve to get her killed.

She recalls the night in London when she had suddenly remembered the pain of her lost life. She had been looking at the checkbook for the first time since the tsunami and had seen one written for school dinners. The words and the memories they brought shattered her. She realized her life of predictability, safety, and shelter was gone.

Deraniyagala knew how shocked her husband and children would be if they could see her in New York as compared to the person she had been in 2004. She believed there was something wrong with her from the beginning and that she...