Summary

Part III: First Days begins with feelings of new intention and invisibility as well as an odd belief that these will lead to home. Chapter 5/The You File talks of turning new in a new place and no longer feeling that one belongs. You feel homesick but out of place when you imagine yourself at home. With strangers in a foreign place far from home, you have no control, yet you find a surprising feeling of being home in this new place, though you didn't know such a world could exist. You do not feel you can go on, yet you do.

Praying not to become a monster, you feel beneath other people so you avoid them; it is easier to need no one. You fear someone being hurt because of you, but your life is not your own as you...