The protagonist, a thirty-five year old woman living in South London, is characterized by her deep sense of longing and obsession. She fixates on two central figures in her life, the 'man I want to be with' and the 'woman I am obsessed with.' These obsessions serve as a coping mechanism for her feelings of powerlessness and inadequacy. Her life is marked by a profound sense of unfulfillment, and she seeks solace in these two individuals who represent everything she desires but cannot attain.

One of the most striking aspects of the protagonist's character is her acute self-awareness. She recognizes the irrationality of her obsessions and her own flaws, including her tendency to lash out in anger. This self-awareness adds depth to her character, as readers can empathize with her struggles while also acknowledging her imperfections. The protagonist's inner turmoil is a central driving force in...