Jenna Jameson spills her heart and her hard-learned experiences to the reader. She tells about her first unhealthy relationship with Jack. She loved him and thought she could get the sensitivity to come through. She started stripping because the girlfriends of Jack's friends were strippers. She thought she loved him and could change him, but all he did was cheat on her, get her addicted to methamphetamine and leave her for dead.

From that point on, Jenna goes from one bad relationship to another. Her career is taking off. She is in men's magazines and has started working in the adult film industry. However, her personal life is horrible. She marries a director that works for the production company Wicked. She realizes that they should have never married. They had been great friends, but were not such great lovers. She wanted someone who was dominant, but not controlling. Rod was not only controlling, but the insecurities he brought to the relationship were reflected in the things he would say to her that eventually lowered her self-esteem and had her doubting herself in many ways. It also pushes her into a relationship with Jordan.

Jordan is the exact opposite of Rod at first. He lives with his parents and is shy. She loves that fact that he is so grounded. However, when she has to return to work he starts being controlling. He does not mind that she buys him things, but does not want her working in the film industry any longer, does not want her to do certain poses during photo shoots, or to dance certain ways. He tells her that she does not respect herself or him if she keeps doing these things. She finally realizes that he is wrong and leaves him.

She goes on another self-destructive path with alcohol and Vicodin. She knows that she should stop using both, but she is having fun letting the anger that has been building for all these years out. It makes her feel good. During this time, she meets Jay. She fights the feelings she has for him. Jenna just runs from commitment, and being with Jay would mean commitment. He rescues her several times, before she realizes that he is the man she has been waiting for and that she has to stop running and give their relationship a chance to grow into the unconditional love she has dreamed of all of her life.