Part 5 Summary

The happiness and strength the narrator feels on Christmas Day continue through New Years, as she continues to feel welcome in her family. But when she and Chris go back to school, it's not long before they're both asked by other students to get them drugs. One of them, Lane, physically assaults the narrator and leaves bruises on her arm. Eventually, both the narrator and Chris get back into "the scene," first with marijuana and then, with the help of Lane (who turns out to be a dealer), into speed, uppers, and all the other drugs they were using before. In defiant language, the narrator asserts in her diary that she's happy about being back on drugs, saying she's never experienced any joy like it. That joy dissipates when Lane is arrested, Chris's home is raided by police, and all three young people...