Part 1 Summary

The diary begins with the narrator writing of her misery after being dismissed by Roger. She records a series of intense emotional swings in the aftermath of this incident, at times believing she's over him, and at other times feeling miserable without him. At one point she's convinced that if she doesn't lose her virginity to him, she'll remain a virgin for the rest of her life. She compares her (minimal) levels of sexual knowledge, desire and experience to the girls with whom she goes to school, referring to several girls who go "all the way" and wondering whether they feel as insecure about their bodies as she does. She expresses the wish that she could talk to her friends and/or to her mother about her confusion about sexuality, but believes they would think she's a "dope."

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