Summary

Book 3, Chapter 1: In the first entry Bendrix reads, Sarah addresses a ‘you’ who is much more obviously God—the Y is capitalized as in religious literature, unlike in the note Parkis had brought Bendrix, where the Y was lower-case. She says she and Bendrix had spent all their love all the time, with each other, and she says it was His love they were spending.

In the second entry, dated 12 February 1946, Sarah says she wants Bendrix again—not the spiritual love expressed by bearing another’s pain. She says she has been bearing God’s pain, but she wants ordinary corrupt human love. She wants Maurice.

Book 3, Chapter 2: This is the chapter that narrates the moment when Sarah’s love for Bendrix was transformed into religious love. Sarah complains Bendrix turns her words of love into evidence against her, and cannot believe in her love...