Summary

Chapter 11 begins with a horrifying scene: Blakinger jumps off a bridge. The rest of the chapter explains how and why she decided to jump. She relates a long dating history including her involvement with a man named Hootie when she was nineteen and he was thirty-three. She hung around him because he was the last stop on her drug dealer route. They moved in together soon after they met, and Blakinger idealized him as brilliant and wise. Blakinger and Hootie were both doing drugs, but for a short while Blakinger was saving money and staying away from heroin.

Suddenly, heroin returns to her life. Blakinger and Hootie shoot up together and lose every material thing they own. Blakinger mentions that the one good thing about this time was that she did not have an active eating disorder. Eventually, Hootie breaks up with Blakinger...