Chapter 10 and Chapter 11 Summary and Analysis

Chapter 10: Barrowman's first serious gay relationship was with a Spanish flamenco dancer named Paco Perez-Arevelo, who was a dancer on the set of Matador, a play in which Barrowman played the lead, Manual Benitez. Matador lasted only three months, which Barrowman attributes to a drop in tourism from the Gulf War of 1991. Barrowman's relationship with Paco was an "open secret" considering he was still technically a boyfriend to Marilyn.

One day, while with Paco, Barrowman got a surprise visit from Marilyn. He panicked about his "affair." But Marilyn had in fact come to confront Barrowman about his homosexuality. Marilyn accepted Barrowman unconditionally and they remained good friends.

Near the conclusion of Matador, Barrowman got a phone call from the assistant of famous clothing designer Valentino. He eventually got a personal interview with Valentino in his lavish home...