Summary

57 – At the casino, the author has a small gambling win. Shortly afterwards, Jon disappears, but later returns, smelling of alcohol. The author then writes of how this fit into a pattern in her life – what she had seen, rooms she had been in, things she had expected, all dissolving into smoke. On the way home, the author writes, she, Jon, and Pat all laughed a lot. The author then shifts focus, writing about different perspectives on addiction, including Carl Jung’s, which advocated finding truth of the spirit in connecting to the spirit. The author relates this to connecting with the history of hunger and of addiction that she learned and inherited from her family, and the history of being destroyed that she inherited from her Indian ancestors.

58 – “A few days before Amaia moved to New York, I called...