Summary

23 – The author describes different points or situations in her relationship with Amaia in which the author felt controlled – and also out of control - how Amaia would monitor her behavior with a touch of her hand; how she tried to convince the author to leave other priorities behind and pay attention to her; and how she made the author feel guilty for prioritizing something other than her. The author then comments on her realization that she was losing track of herself, of her family, and of her responsibilities, even as she made arrangements to fly to Iowa to meet Amaia.

24 – The author recalls the addiction and violence running through the Captain’s side of the family, and his frustrated anger when hearing news stories about addiction, which he refers to as people unable to heal themselves. The author writes...