Why does Maleeka consider herself a"freak"and a"loser In what does she Identify with Miss saunder

Maleeka doesn't like her very black skin. She thinks she stands out even among black students. Miss Saunders, Maleeka's English teacher has a skin disorder on her face (most likely vitiligo). Despite her skin disorder, Miss Saunders is confident and is what Maleeka dreams of being.