What is the main conflict in The Sacred Journey; a Memoir of Early Days by Frederick Buechner?

During Freddy's childhood, his family moves around constantly, as his father searches for work during the Great Depression. When Freddy is ten years old, his father kills himself one morning. This is the moment when Freddy begins to be aware of the passage of time, and of the approach of death. Freddy is unable to grieve for his father for many years.