Why does the poet seem confused in Line 7 of the poem, I Stop Writing the Poem?

In Line 7, Gallagher somewhat contradicts herself. Here she states, "I'll get back to being / a woman." In line two she had already said she was "still a woman." Is she confused? Well, maybe she is not confused. Maybe she is just trying to convince herself. She is definitely struggling with the concept, though. Did death rob her of some underlying concept of herself by taking away the man she loved? She knows that she is having trouble expressing herself through poetry, so death has stripped her of at least one of her basic perceptions of herself.