I Never Promised You a Rose Garden Chapter 20

Deborah begins to burn herself repeatedly without any of the ward attendants noticing. Just when they are going to move her back down to B ward, a place where she could burn herself to death before getting caught, she shows Dr. Halle, the new and kind D ward administrator the new burns. Confused at how she has prevented her perfect suicide, Deborah falls into the Pit again.

When she wakes from the pack, Furii is back. Deborah is ashamed at her condition, and she tells Furii of the self-loathing that has taken over. Furii blames part of the regression on Deborah's anger that Furii left. They set up an appointment for the next day.

Esther comes to the hospital and learns about the burns. She is shocked, but her hopelessness is lessened when Dr. Fried explains that she wouldn't be working with Deborah if she didn't see the chance of recovery.