The days passed, the weeks passed; it was approaching the third month of my stay in Cumberland.  The delicious monotony of life in our calm seclusion flowed on with me, like a smooth stream with a swimmer who glides down the current.  All memory of the past, all thought of the future, all sense of the falseness and hopelessness of my own position, lay hushed within me into deceitful rest.  Lulled by the Syren-song that my own heart sung to me, with eyes shut to all sight, and ears closed to all sound of danger, I drifted nearer and nearer to the fatal rocks.  The warning that aroused me at last, and startled me into sudden, self-accusing consciousness of my own weakness, was the plainest, the truest, the kindest of all warnings, for it came silently from her.

We had parted one night as usual.  No word had fallen from my lips, at that time or at any time before it, that could betray me, or startle her into sudden knowledge of the truth.  But when we met again in the morning, a change had come over her—­a change that told me all.

I shrank then—­I shrink still—­from invading the innermost sanctuary of her heart, and laying it open to others, as I have laid open my own.  Let it be enough to say that the time when she first surprised my secret was, I firmly believe, the time when she first surprised her own, and the time, also, when she changed towards me in the interval of one night.  Her nature, too truthful to deceive others, was too noble to deceive itself.  When the doubt that I had hushed asleep first laid its weary weight on her heart, the true face owned all, and said, in its own frank, simple language—­I am sorry for him; I am sorry for myself.

It said this, and more, which I could not then interpret.  I understood but too well the change in her manner, to greater kindness and quicker readiness in interpreting all my wishes, before others—­to constraint and sadness, and nervous anxiety to absorb herself in the first occupation she could seize on, whenever we happened to be left together alone.  I understood why the sweet sensitive lips smiled so rarely and so restrainedly now, and why the clear blue eyes looked at me, sometimes with the pity of an angel, sometimes with the innocent perplexity of a child.  But the change meant more than this.  There was a coldness in her hand, there was an unnatural immobility in her face, there was in all her movements the mute expression of constant fear and clinging self-reproach.  The sensations that I could trace to herself and to me, the unacknowledged sensations that we were feeling in common, were not these.  There were certain elements of the change in her that were still secretly drawing us together, and others that were, as secretly, beginning to drive us apart.