tried to change the conversation. But Mrs. Markland
persisted. ’I have had all sorts of teachers,’
she went on, ’but the best of all, the most
intelligent and the most attentive, was a Mr. Hartright.
If you ever take up your drawing again, do try him
as a master. He is a young man—modest
and gentlemanlike—I am sure you will like
him. ’Think of those words being spoken
to me publicly, in the presence of strangers—strangers
who had been invited to meet the bride and bridegroom!
I did all I could to control myself—I said
nothing, and looked down close at the drawings.
When I ventured to raise my head again, my eyes and
my husband’s eyes met, and I knew, by his look,
that my face had betrayed me. ’We will
see about Mr. Hartright,’ he said, looking at
me all the time, ’when we get back to England.
I agree with you, Mrs. Markland—I think
Lady Glyde is sure to like him.’ He laid
an emphasis on the last words which made my cheeks
burn, and set my heart beating as if it would stifle
me. Nothing more was said. We came away
early. He was silent in the carriage driving
back to the hotel. He helped me out, and followed
me upstairs as usual. But the moment we were
in the drawing-room, he locked the door, pushed me
down into a chair, and stood over me with his hands
on my shoulders. ’Ever since that morning
when you made your audacious confession to me at Limmeridge,’
he said, ’I have wanted to find out the man,
and I found him in your face to-night. Your
drawing-master was the man, and his name is Hartright.
You shall repent it, and he shall repent it, to the
last hour of your lives. Now go to bed and dream
of him if you like, with the marks of my horsewhip
on his shoulders.’ Whenever he is angry
with me now he refers to what I acknowledged to him
in your presence with a sneer or a threat. I
have no power to prevent him from putting his own horrible
construction on the confidence I placed in him.
I have no influence to make him believe me, or to
keep him silent. You looked surprised to-day
when you heard him tell me that I had made a virtue
of necessity in marrying him. You will not be
surprised again when you hear him repeat it, the next
time he is out of temper——Oh, Marian!
don’t! don’t! you hurt me!”
I had caught her in my arms, and the sting and torment
of my remorse had closed them round her like a vice.
Yes! my remorse. The white despair of Walter’s
face, when my cruel words struck him to the heart
in the summer-house at Limmeridge, rose before me in
mute, unendurable reproach. My hand had pointed
the way which led the man my sister loved, step by
step, far from his country and his friends.
Between those two young hearts I had stood, to sunder
them for ever, the one from the other, and his life
and her life lay wasted before me alike in witness
of the deed. I had done this, and done it for
Sir Percival Glyde.
For Sir Percival Glyde.
I heard her speaking, and I knew by the tone of her
voice that she was comforting me—I, who
deserved nothing but the reproach of her silence!
How long it was before I mastered the absorbing misery
of my own thoughts, I cannot tell. I was first
conscious that she was kissing me, and then my eyes
seemed to wake on a sudden to their sense of outward
things, and I knew that I was looking mechanically
straight before me at the prospect of the lake.