This she positively forbid ; and said it must only pass through her hands.  “When I give you the gown,” she added, “I will tell you when you may make your curtsey.”

I was not vexed at this prohibition, not knowing what etiquette I might offend by breaking it; and the conversation concluded with nothing being settled.

How little did the sweet queen imagine that this her first mark of favour should so be offered me as to raise in me my first spirit of resistance !  How differently would she have executed her own commission herself!  To avoid exciting jealousy was, I doubt not, her motive for employing another.

A crowded drawing-room.

Aug. 10.-I journeyed to town, with Mrs. Schwellenberg and Miss Planta; and this morning I was employed for the first time on a message to the queen.  I was in the ante-room, when Mr. Nicolay, her majesty’s page at St. James’s, came and 370

told me the Duchess of Ancaster sent her humble duty to the queen, and begged an audience before the Drawing-room.  I told the queen, who, when dressed, all but her necklace, received the duchess in the ante-room.

I mention all these little ceremonies as they occur, that hereafter I may have no occasion, when they lead to other matters,, to explain them.

The bedchamber woman was rung for on the queen’s return.  So you see I am not the only one to answer a bell.  It was Mrs. Fielding, who looked at me with an attention that will not leave her much in doubt as to my dress, at least, though she could not speak.  I have told you, I believe, that no one, not even the princesses, ever speak in the presence of the king and queen, but to answer what is immediately said by themselves.  There are, indeed, occasions in which this is set aside, from particular encouragement given at the moment; but it is not less a rule, and it is one very rarely infringed.

When the Drawing-room began, I went to my own room and there I had the great happiness of finding my father, who had contrived to be in town purposely, and to whom I had sent John, in St. Martin’s-street, that he might be shown the straight way to my apartment.  He had determined upon going to the Drawing-room himself, to manifest, amongst the general zeal of the times, his loyal joy in his majesty’s safety.

The drawing-room was over very late indeed.  So anxious has been the whole nation to show their affectionate attachment to the king, that this, the first Drawing-room since his danger, was as splendid, and as much crowded, as upon a birthday.  When the queen summoned me, upon returning to her dressing-room, and mentioned how full and how hot it had been, I ventured to say, " I am very glad of it, ma’am; it was an honest crowd to-day.”

The keeper of the robes is very much put out.

At tea I found a new uniform.  Major Price, immediately introduced me to him; he was Colonel Fairly.(210) He is a man of the most scrupulous good-breeding, diffident, gentle, and sentimental in his conversation, and assiduously attentive in