phantasies are but the illusions that creep like maggots
into civilizations when they begin to decline, and
into minds when they begin to decay.’ I
had grown suddenly angry, and seizing the alembic
from the table, was about to rise and strike him with
it, when the peacocks on the door behind him appeared
to grow immense; and then the alembic fell
from my fingers and I was drowned in a tide of green
and blue and bronze feathers, and as I struggled hopelessly
I heard a distant voice saying: ’Our master
Avicenna has written that all life proceeds out of
corruption.’ The glittering feathers had
now covered me completely, and I knew that I had struggled
for hundreds of years, and was conquered at last.
I was sinking into the depth when the green and blue
and bronze that seemed to fill the world became a sea
of flame and swept me away, and as I was swirled along
I heard a voice over my head cry, ‘The mirror
is broken in two pieces,’ and another voice
answer, ‘The mirror is broken in four pieces,’
and a more distant voice cry with an exultant cry,
’The mirror is broken into numberless pieces’;
and then a multitude of pale hands were reaching towards
me, and strange gentle faces bending above me, and
half wailing and half caressing voices uttering words
that were forgotten the moment they were spoken.
I was being lifted out of the tide of flame, and felt
my memories, my hopes, my thoughts, my will, everything
I held to be myself, melting away; then I seemed to
rise through numberless companies of beings who were,
I understood, in some way more certain than thought,
each wrapped in his eternal moment, in the perfect
lifting of an arm, in a little circlet of rhythmical
words, in dreaming with dim eyes and half-closed eyelids.
And then I passed beyond these forms, which were so
beautiful they had almost ceased to be, and, having
endured strange moods, melancholy, as it seemed, with
the weight of many worlds, I passed into that Death
which is Beauty herself, and into that Loneliness
which all the multitudes desire without ceasing.
All things that had ever lived seemed to come and
dwell in my heart, and I in theirs; and I had never
again known mortality or tears, had I not suddenly
fallen from the certainty of vision into the uncertainty
of dream, and become a drop of molten gold falling
with immense rapidity, through a night elaborate with
stars, and all about me a melancholy exultant wailing.
I fell and fell and fell, and then the wailing was
but the wailing of the wind in the chimney, and I
awoke to find myself leaning upon the table and supporting
my head with my hands. I saw the alembic
swaying from side to side in the distant corner it
had rolled to, and Michael Robartes watching me and
waiting. ’I will go wherever you will,’
I said, ’and do whatever you bid me, for I have
been with eternal things.’ ‘I knew,’
he replied, ’you must need answer as you have
answered, when I heard the storm begin. You must
come to a great distance, for we were commanded to
build our temple between the pure multitude by the
waves and the impure multitude of men.’