Life's Handicap eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 405 pages of information about Life's Handicap.

Life's Handicap eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 405 pages of information about Life's Handicap.

Holden sat silent on the couch thinking of the future, and his thoughts were not pleasant.  The drawbacks of a double life are manifold.  The Government, with singular care, had ordered him out of the station for a fortnight on special duty in the place of a man who was watching by the bedside of a sick wife.  The verbal notification of the transfer had been edged by a cheerful remark that Holden ought to think himself lucky in being a bachelor and a free man.  He came to break the news to Ameera.

‘It is not good,’ she said slowly, ’but it is not all bad.  There is my mother here, and no harm will come to me—­unless indeed I die of pure joy.  Go thou to thy work and think no troublesome thoughts.  When the days are done I believe... nay, I am sure.  And—­and then I shall lay him in thy arms, and thou wilt love me for ever.  The train goes to-night, at midnight is it not?  Go now, and do not let thy heart be heavy by cause of me.  But thou wilt not delay in returning?  Thou wilt not stay on the road to talk to the bold white mem-log.  Come back to me swiftly, my life.’

As he left the courtyard to reach his horse that was tethered to the gate-post, Holden spoke to the white-haired old watchman who guarded the house, and bade him under certain contingencies despatch the filled-up telegraph-form that Holden gave him.  It was all that could be done, and with the sensations of a man who has attended his own funeral Holden went away by the night mail to his exile.  Every hour of the day he dreaded the arrival of the telegram, and every hour of the night he pictured to himself the death of Ameera.  In consequence his work for the State was not of first-rate quality, nor was his temper towards his colleagues of the most amiable.  The fortnight ended without a sign from his home, and, torn to pieces by his anxieties, Holden returned to be swallowed up for two precious hours by a dinner at the club, wherein he heard, as a man hears in a swoon, voices telling him how execrably he had performed the other man’s duties, and how he had endeared himself to all his associates.  Then he fled on horseback through the night with his heart in his mouth.  There was no answer at first to his blows on the gate, and he had just wheeled his horse round to kick it in when Pir Khan appeared with a lantern and held his stirrup.

‘Has aught occurred?’ said Holden.

‘The news does not come from my mouth, Protector of the Poor, but—­’ He held out his shaking hand as befitted the bearer of good news who is entitled to a reward.

Holden hurried through the courtyard.  A light burned in the upper room.  His horse neighed in the gateway, and he heard a shrill little wail that sent all the blood into the apple of his throat.  It was a new voice, but it did not prove that Ameera was alive.

‘Who is there?’ he called up the narrow brick staircase.

There was a cry of delight from Ameera, and then the voice of the mother, tremulous with old age and pride—­’We be two women and—­the—­ man—­thy—­son.’

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