I tracked these streams winding in secretness far
away. I said, “I am going to myself.
I will bathe in the Fountain of Life;” and
so on and on I sped northwards, with dark waters flowing
beneath me and stars companioning my flight.
Then a radiance illumined the heavens, the icy peaks
and caves, and I saw the Northern Lights. Out
of the diamond breast of the air I looked forth.
Below the dim world shone all with pale and wintry
green; the icy crests flickered with a light reflect
from the shadowy auras streaming over the horizon.
Then these auras broke out in fire, and the plains
of ice were illumined. The light flashed through
the goblin caves, and lit up their frosty hearts and
the fantastic minarets drooping above them.
Light above in solemn array went forth and conquered
the night. Light below with a myriad flashing
spears pursued the gloom. Its dazzling lances
shivered in the heart of the ice: they sped along
the ghostly hollows; the hues of the orient seemed
to laugh through winter; the peaks blossomed with
starry and crystalline flowers, lilac and white and
blue; they faded away, pearl, opal and pink in shimmering
evanescence; then gleams of rose and amethyst traveled
slowly from spar to spar, lightened and departed;
there was silence before my eyes; the world once
more was all a pale and wintry green. I thought
of them no more, but of the mighty and unseen tides
going by me with billowy motion. “Oh, Fountain
I seek, thy waters are all about me, but where shall
I find a path to Thee?” Something answered my
cry, “Look in thy heart!” and, obeying
the voice, the seer in me looked forth no more through
the eyes of the shadowy form, but sank deep within
itself. I knew then the nature of these mystic
streams; they were life, joy, love, ardour, light.
From these came the breath of life which the heart
drew in with every beat, and from thence it was flashed
up in illumination through the cloudy hollows of the
brain. They poured forth unceasingly; they were
life in everyone; they were joy in everyone; they
stirred an incommunicable love which was fulfilled
only in yielding to and adoration of the vast.
But the Fountain I could not draw nigh unto; I was
borne backwards from its unimaginable centre, then
an arm seized me, and I was stayed. I could
see no one, but I grew quiet, full of deep quiet,
out of which memory breathes only shadowiest symbols,
images of power and Holy Sages, their grand faces
turned to the world, as if in the benediction of universal
love, pity, sympathy, and peace, ordained by Buddha;
the faces of the Fathers, ancient with eternal youth,
looking forth as in the imagination of the mystic Blake,
the Morning Stars looked forth and sang together.
A sound as of an “Om” unceasing
welled up and made an auriole of peace around them.
I would have joined in the song, but could not attain
to them. I knew if I had a deeper love I could
have entered with them into unending labours amid