ministrant, paying him such attentions as nobody could
be trusted to bear uninjured except a doll or a baby.
One might have been tempted to say that they sought
his physical welfare at the risk of his moral ruin.
But there is that in sickness which leads men back
to a kind of babyhood, and while it lasts there is
comparatively little danger. It is with returning
health that the peril comes. Then self and self-fancied
worth awake, and find themselves again, and the risk
is then great indeed that all the ministrations of
love be taken for homage at the altar of importance.
How often has not a mistress found that after nursing
a servant through an illness, perhaps an old servant
even, she has had to part with her for unendurable
arrogance and insubordination? But present sickness
is a wonderful antidote to vanity, and nourisher of
the gentle primeval simplicities of human nature.
So long as a man feels himself a poor creature, not
only physically unable, but without the spirit to
desire to act, kindness will move gratitude, and not
vanity. In Rowland’s case happily it lasted
until something better was able to get up its head
a little. But no one can predict what the first
result of suffering will be, not knowing what seeds
lie nearest the surface. Rowland’s self-satisfaction
had been a hard pan beneath which lay thousands of
germinal possibilities invaluable; and now the result
of its tearing up remained to be seen. If in
such case Truth’s never-ceasing pull at the heart
begins to be felt, allowed, considered; if conscience
begin, like a thing weary with very sleep, to rouse
itself in motions of pain from the stiffness of its
repose, then is there hope of the best.
He had lost much blood, having lain a long time, as
I say, in the fallow-field before Shafto found him.
Oft-recurring fever, extreme depression, and intermittent
and doubtful progress life-wards followed. Through
all the commotion of the king’s visits, the coming
and going, the clang of hoofs and clanking of armour,
the heaving of hearts and clamour of tongues, he lay
lapped in ignorance and ministration, hidden from
the world and deaf to the gnarring of its wheels,
prisoned in a twilight dungeon, to which Richard’s
sword had been the key. The world went grinding
on and on, much the same, without him whom it had
forgotten; but the over-world remembered him, and
now and then looked in at a window: all dungeons
have one window which no gaoler and no tyrant can
build up.
The marquis went often to see him, full of pity for
the gay youth thus brought low; but he would lie pale
and listless, now and then turning his eyes, worn
large with the wasting of his face, upon him, but
looking as if he only half heard him. His master
grew sad about him. The next time his majesty
came, he asked him if he remembered the youth, telling
him how he had lain wounded ever since the battle
at Naseby. The king remembered him well enough,
but had never missed him. The marquis then told
him how anxious he was about him, for that nothing
woke him from the weary heartlessness into which he
had fallen.