Lavretsky took her in with a glance of hatred; scarcely could he refrain from crying:  “Bravo!” scarcely could he refrain from felling her with a blow of his fist on her shapely head—­and he turned on his heel.  An hour later he had started for Vassilyevskoe, and two hours later Varvara Pavlovna had bespoken the best carriage in the town, had put on a simple straw hat with a black veil, and a modest mantle, given Ada into the charge of Justine, and set off to the Kalitins’.  From the inquiries she had made among the servants, she had learnt that her husband went to see them every day.

Chapter XXXVIII

The day of the arrival of Lavretsky’s wife at the town of O-----, a
sorrowful day for him, and been also a day of misery for Lisa.  She had
not had time to go down-stairs and say good-morning to her mother, when
the tramp of hoofs was heard under the window, and with a secret dismay
she saw Panshin riding into the courtyard.  “He has come so early for a
final explanation,” she thought, and she was not mistaken.  After a turn
in the drawing-room, he suggested that she should go with him into the
garden, and then asked her for the decision of his fate.  Lisa summoned
up all her courage and told him that she could not be his wife.  He heard
her to the end, standing on one side of her and pulling his hat down
over his forehead; courteously, but in a changed voice, he asked her,
“Was this her last word, and had he given her any ground for such a
change in her views?”—­then pressed his hand to his eyes, sighed softly
and abruptly, and took his head away from his face again.

“I did not want to go along the beaten track,” he said huskily.  “I wanted to choose a wife according to the dictates of my heart; but it seems this was not to be.  Farewell, fond dream!” He made Lisa a profound bow, and went back into the house.

She hoped that he would go away at once; but he went into Marya Dmitrievna’s room and remained nearly an hour with her.  As he came out, he said to Lisa:  “Votre mere vous appelle; adieu a jamais,” . . . mounted his horse, and set off at full trot from the very steps.  Lisa went in to Marya Dmitrievna and found her in tears; Panshin had informed her of his ill-luck.

“Do you want to be the death of me?  Do you want to be the death of me?” was how the disconsolate widow began her lamentations.  “Whom do you want?  Wasn’t he good enough for you?  A kammer-junker! not interesting!  He might have married any Maid of Honour he liked in Petersburg.  And I—­I had so hoped for it!  Is it long that you have changed towards him?  How has this misfortune come on us,—­it cannot have come of itself!  Is it that dolt of a cousin’s doing?  A nice person you have picked up to advise you!”

“And he, poor darling,” Marya Dmitrievna went on, “how respectful he is, how attentive even in his sorrow!  He has promised not to desert me.  Ah, I can never bear that!  Ah, my head aches fit to split!  Send me Palashka.  You will be the death of me, if you don’t think better of it,—­do you hear?”