and put up with much, had faced privation, had struggled
like a fish on the ice; but the idea of returning
to his own country never left him among all the hardships
he endured; it was this dream alone that sustained
him. But fate did not see fit to grant him this
last and first happiness: at fifty, broken-down
in health and prematurely aged, he drifted to the town
of O——, and remained there for good,
having now lost once for all every hope of leaving
Russia, which he detested. He gained his poor
livelihood somehow by lessons. Lemm’s exterior
was not prepossessing. He was short and bent,
with crooked shoulders, and contracted chest, with
large flat feet, and bluish white nails on the gnarled
bony fingers of his sinewy red hands. He had
a wrinkled face, sunken cheeks, and compressed lips,
which he was for ever twitching and biting; and this,
together with his habitual taciturnity, produced an
impression almost sinister. His grey hair hung
in tufts on his low brow; like smouldering embers,
his little set eyes glowed with dull fire. He
moved painfully, at every step swinging his ungainly
body forward. Some of his movements recalled the
clumsy actions of an owl in a cage when it feels that
it is being looked at, but itself can hardly see out
of its great yellow eyes timorously and drowsily blinking.
Pitiless, prolonged sorrow had laid its indelible
stamp on the poor musician; it had disfigured and deformed
his person, by no means attractive to begin with.
But any one who was able to get over the first impression
would have discerned something good, and honest, and
out of the common in this half-shattered creature.
A devoted admirer of Bach and Handel, a master of
his art, gifted with a lively imagination and that
boldness of conception which is only vouchsafed to
the German race, Lemm might, in time—who
knows?—have taken rank with the great composers
of his fatherland, had his life been different; but
he was born under an unlucky star! He had written
much in his life, and it had not been granted to him
to see one of his compositions produced; he did not
know how to set about things in the right way, to gain
favour in the right place, and to make a push at the
right moment. A long, long time ago, his one
friend and admirer, also a German and also poor, had
published two of Lemm’s sonatas at his own expense—the
whole edition remained on the shelves of the music-shops;
they disappeared without a trace, as though they had
been thrown into a river by night. At last Lemm
had renounced everything; the years too did their work;
his mind had grown hard and stiff, as his fingers
had stiffened. He lived alone in a little cottage
not far from the Kalitin’s house, with an old
cook he had taken out of the poorhouse (he had never
married). He took long walks, and read the Bible
and the Protestant version of the Psalms, and Shakespeare
in Schlegel’s translation. He had composed
nothing for a long time; but apparently, Lisa, his
best pupil, had been able to inspire him; he had written