they were many, she could only play with one at a
time, and that, indeed, troubled her a little—or
live lambs that were not all wool, or the sheep-dogs,
which were very friendly with her, and the best of
playfellows, as she thought, for she had no human
ones to compare them with. Neither was she greedy
after nice things, but content, as well she might
be, with the homely food provided for her. Nor
was she by nature particularly self-willed or disobedient;
she generally did what her father and mother wished,
and believed what they told her. But by degrees
they had spoiled her; and this was the way: they
were so proud of her that they always repeated every
thing she said, and told every thing she did, even
when she was present; and so full of admiration of
their child were they, that they wondered and laughed
at and praised things in her which in another child
would never have struck them as the least remarkable,
and some things even which would in another have disgusted
them altogether. Impertinent and rude things done
by
their child they thought
so clever! laughing
at them as something quite marvellous; her commonplace
speeches were said over again as if they had been
the finest poetry; and the pretty ways which every
moderately good child has were extolled as if the result
of her excellent taste, and the choice of her judgment
and will. They would even say sometimes that
she ought not to hear her own praises for fear it
should make her vain, and then whisper them behind
their hands, but so loud that she could not fail to
hear every word. The consequence was that she
soon came to believe—so soon, that she
could not recall the time when she did not believe,
as the most absolute fact in the universe, that she
was
somebody; that is, she became most immoderately
conceited.
Now as the least atom of conceit is a thing to be
ashamed of, you may fancy what she was like with such
a quantity of it inside her!
At first it did not show itself outside in any very
active form; but the wise woman had been to the cottage,
and had seen her sitting alone, with such a smile
of self-satisfaction upon her face as would have been
quite startling to her, if she had ever been startled
at any thing; for through that smile she could see
lying at the root of it the worm that made it.
For some smiles are like the ruddiness of certain
apples, which is owing to a centipede, or other creeping
thing, coiled up at the heart of them. Only her
worm had a face and shape the very image of her own;
and she looked so simpering, and mawkish, and self-conscious,
and silly, that she made the wise woman feel rather
sick.
Not that the child was a fool. Had she been,
the wise woman would have only pitied and loved her,
instead of feeling sick when she looked at her.
She had very fair abilities, and were she once but
made humble, would be capable not only of doing a good
deal in time, but of beginning at once to grow to
no end. But, if she were not made humble, her
growing would be to a mass of distorted shapes all
huddled together; so that, although the body she now
showed might grow up straight and well-shaped and
comely to behold, the new body that was growing inside
of it, and would come out of it when she died, would
be ugly, and crooked this way and that, like an aged
hawthorn that has lived hundreds of years exposed upon
all sides to salt sea-winds.