plan of evasion—I may call it—in
all its primitive simplicity. There were the rupees—absolutely
ready in my pocket and very much at his service.
Oh! a loan; a loan of course—and if an
introduction to a man (in Rangoon) who could put some
work in his way . . . Why! with the greatest pleasure.
I had pen, ink, and paper in my room on the first
floor And even while I was speaking I was impatient
to begin the letter—day, month, year, 2.30
A.M. . . . for the sake of our old friendship I ask
you to put some work in the way of Mr. James So-and-so,
in whom, &c., &c. . . . I was even ready to write
in that strain about him. If he had not enlisted
my sympathies he had done better for himself—he
had gone to the very fount and origin of that sentiment
he had reached the secret sensibility of my egoism.
I am concealing nothing from you, because were I to
do so my action would appear more unintelligible than
any man’s action has the right to be, and—in
the second place—to-morrow you will forget
my sincerity along with the other lessons of the past.
In this transaction, to speak grossly and precisely,
I was the irreproachable man; but the subtle intentions
of my immorality were defeated by the moral simplicity
of the criminal. No doubt he was selfish too,
but his selfishness had a higher origin, a more lofty
aim. I discovered that, say what I would, he was
eager to go through the ceremony of execution, and
I didn’t say much, for I felt that in argument
his youth would tell against me heavily: he believed
where I had already ceased to doubt. There was
something fine in the wildness of his unexpressed,
hardly formulated hope. “Clear out!
Couldn’t think of it,” he said, with a
shake of the head. “I make you an offer
for which I neither demand nor expect any sort of gratitude,”
I said; “you shall repay the money when convenient,
and . . .” “Awfully good of you,”
he muttered without looking up. I watched him
narrowly: the future must have appeared horribly
uncertain to him; but he did not falter, as though
indeed there had been nothing wrong with his heart.
I felt angry—not for the first time that
night. “The whole wretched business,”
I said, “is bitter enough, I should think, for
a man of your kind . . .” “It is,
it is,” he whispered twice, with his eyes fixed
on the floor. It was heartrending. He towered
above the light, and I could see the down on his cheek,
the colour mantling warm under the smooth skin of
his face. Believe me or not, I say it was outrageously
heartrending. It provoked me to brutality.
“Yes,” I said; “and allow me to
confess that I am totally unable to imagine what advantage
you can expect from this licking of the dregs.”
“Advantage!” he murmured out of his stillness.
“I am dashed if I do,” I said, enraged.
“I’ve been trying to tell you all there
is in it,” he went on slowly, as if meditating
something unanswerable. “But after all,
it is my trouble.” I opened my mouth
to retort, and discovered suddenly that I’d lost