of a love affair, I believe. He fondly hoped
he had done with the sea for ever, and made sure he
had got hold of all the bliss on earth, but it came
to canvassing in the end. Some cousin of his in
Liverpool put up to it. He used to tell us his
experiences in that line. He made us laugh till
we cried, and, not altogether displeased at the effect,
undersized and bearded to the waist like a gnome,
he would tiptoe amongst us and say, “It’s
all very well for you beggars to laugh, but my immortal
soul was shrivelled down to the size of a parched
pea after a week of that work.” I don’t
know how Jim’s soul accommodated itself to the
new conditions of his life—I was kept too
busy in getting him something to do that would keep
body and soul together—but I am pretty certain
his adventurous fancy was suffering all the pangs
of starvation. It had certainly nothing to feed
upon in this new calling. It was distressing
to see him at it, though he tackled it with a stubborn
serenity for which I must give him full credit.
I kept my eye on his shabby plodding with a sort of
notion that it was a punishment for the heroics of
his fancy—an expiation for his craving
after more glamour than he could carry. He had
loved too well to imagine himself a glorious racehorse,
and now he was condemned to toil without honour like
a costermonger’s donkey. He did it very
well. He shut himself in, put his head down, said
never a word. Very well; very well indeed—except
for certain fantastic and violent outbreaks, on the
deplorable occasions when the irrepressible Patna
case cropped up. Unfortunately that scandal of
the Eastern seas would not die out. And this
is the reason why I could never feel I had done with
Jim for good.
’I sat thinking of him after the French lieutenant
had left, not, however, in connection with De Jongh’s
cool and gloomy backshop, where we had hurriedly shaken
hands not very long ago, but as I had seen him years
before in the last flickers of the candle, alone with
me in the long gallery of the Malabar House, with
the chill and the darkness of the night at his back.
The respectable sword of his country’s law was
suspended over his head. To-morrow—or
was it to-day? (midnight had slipped by long before
we parted)—the marble-faced police magistrate,
after distributing fines and terms of imprisonment
in the assault-and-battery case, would take up the
awful weapon and smite his bowed neck. Our communion
in the night was uncommonly like a last vigil with
a condemned man. He was guilty too. He was
guilty—as I had told myself repeatedly,
guilty and done for; nevertheless, I wished to spare
him the mere detail of a formal execution. I don’t
pretend to explain the reasons of my desire—I
don’t think I could; but if you haven’t
got a sort of notion by this time, then I must have
been very obscure in my narrative, or you too sleepy
to seize upon the sense of my words. I don’t
defend my morality. There was no morality in the
impulse which induced me to lay before him Brierly’s