He had a mind to try a coffee-plantation there.
The big hill, rearing its double summit coal-black
in the clear yellow glow of the rising moon, seemed
to cast its shadow upon the ground prepared for that
experiment. He was going to try ever so many
experiments; I had admired his energy, his enterprise,
and his shrewdness. Nothing on earth seemed less
real now than his plans, his energy, and his enthusiasm;
and raising my eyes, I saw part of the moon glittering
through the bushes at the bottom of the chasm.
For a moment it looked as though the smooth disc, falling
from its place in the sky upon the earth, had rolled
to the bottom of that precipice: its ascending
movement was like a leisurely rebound; it disengaged
itself from the tangle of twigs; the bare contorted
limb of some tree, growing on the slope, made a black
crack right across its face. It threw its level
rays afar as if from a cavern, and in this mournful
eclipse-like light the stumps of felled trees uprose
very dark, the heavy shadows fell at my feet on all
sides, my own moving shadow, and across my path the
shadow of the solitary grave perpetually garlanded
with flowers. In the darkened moonlight the interlaced
blossoms took on shapes foreign to one’s memory
and colours indefinable to the eye, as though they
had been special flowers gathered by no man, grown
not in this world, and destined for the use of the
dead alone. Their powerful scent hung in the
warm air, making it thick and heavy like the fumes
of incense. The lumps of white coral shone round
the dark mound like a chaplet of bleached skulls,
and everything around was so quiet that when I stood
still all sound and all movement in the world seemed
to come to an end.
’It was a great peace, as if the earth had been
one grave, and for a time I stood there thinking mostly
of the living who, buried in remote places out of
the knowledge of mankind, still are fated to share
in its tragic or grotesque miseries. In its noble
struggles too—who knows? The human
heart is vast enough to contain all the world.
It is valiant enough to bear the burden, but where
is the courage that would cast it off?
’I suppose I must have fallen into a sentimental
mood; I only know that I stood there long enough for
the sense of utter solitude to get hold of me so completely
that all I had lately seen, all I had heard, and the
very human speech itself, seemed to have passed away
out of existence, living only for a while longer in
my memory, as though I had been the last of mankind.
It was a strange and melancholy illusion, evolved
half-consciously like all our illusions, which I suspect
only to be visions of remote unattainable truth, seen
dimly. This was, indeed, one of the lost, forgotten,
unknown places of the earth; I had looked under its
obscure surface; and I felt that when to-morrow I had
left it for ever, it would slip out of existence,
to live only in my memory till I myself passed into
oblivion. I have that feeling about me now; perhaps
it is that feeling which has incited me to tell you
the story, to try to hand over to you, as it were,
its very existence, its reality—the truth
disclosed in a moment of illusion.