’He stood up with the tips of his fingers resting on the desk.

’"We want in so many different ways to be,” he began again.  “This magnificent butterfly finds a little heap of dirt and sits still on it; but man he will never on his heap of mud keep still.  He want to be so, and again he want to be so. . . .”  He moved his hand up, then down. . . .  “He wants to be a saint, and he wants to be a devil—­and every time he shuts his eyes he sees himself as a very fine fellow—­so fine as he can never be. . . .  In a dream. . . .”

’He lowered the glass lid, the automatic lock clicked sharply, and taking up the case in both hands he bore it religiously away to its place, passing out of the bright circle of the lamp into the ring of fainter light—­into shapeless dusk at last.  It had an odd effect—­as if these few steps had carried him out of this concrete and perplexed world.  His tall form, as though robbed of its substance, hovered noiselessly over invisible things with stooping and indefinite movements; his voice, heard in that remoteness where he could be glimpsed mysteriously busy with immaterial cares, was no longer incisive, seemed to roll voluminous and grave—­mellowed by distance.

’"And because you not always can keep your eyes shut there comes the real trouble—­the heart pain—­the world pain.  I tell you, my friend, it is not good for you to find you cannot make your dream come true, for the reason that you not strong enough are, or not clever enough. . . .  Ja! . . .  And all the time you are such a fine fellow too!  Wie?  Was?  Gott im Himmel!  How can that be?  Ha! ha! ha!”

’The shadow prowling amongst the graves of butterflies laughed boisterously.

’"Yes!  Very funny this terrible thing is.  A man that is born falls into a dream like a man who falls into the sea.  If he tries to climb out into the air as inexperienced people endeavour to do, he drowns—­nicht wahr? . . .  No!  I tell you!  The way is to the destructive element submit yourself, and with the exertions of your hands and feet in the water make the deep, deep sea keep you up.  So if you ask me—­how to be?”

’His voice leaped up extraordinarily strong, as though away there in the dusk he had been inspired by some whisper of knowledge.  “I will tell you!  For that too there is only one way.”

’With a hasty swish-swish of his slippers he loomed up in the ring of faint light, and suddenly appeared in the bright circle of the lamp.  His extended hand aimed at my breast like a pistol; his deepset eyes seemed to pierce through me, but his twitching lips uttered no word, and the austere exaltation of a certitude seen in the dusk vanished from his face.  The hand that had been pointing at my breast fell, and by-and-by, coming a step nearer, he laid it gently on my shoulder.  There were things, he said mournfully, that perhaps could never be told, only he had lived so much alone that sometimes he forgot—­he forgot.  The light had destroyed