rigorous criticism seemed unworthy the notice of a
man who could see things as they were. An empty
formality; a piece of parchment. Well, well.
As to an inaccessible guano deposit, that was another
story altogether. One could intelligibly break
one’s heart over that. A feeble burst of
many voices mingled with the tinkle of silver and
glass floated up from the dining-room below; through
the open door the outer edge of the light from my
candle fell on his back faintly; beyond all was black;
he stood on the brink of a vast obscurity, like a
lonely figure by the shore of a sombre and hopeless
ocean. There was the Walpole Reef in it—to
be sure—a speck in the dark void, a straw
for the drowning man. My compassion for him took
the shape of the thought that I wouldn’t have
liked his people to see him at that moment. I
found it trying myself. His back was no longer
shaken by his gasps; he stood straight as an arrow,
faintly visible and still; and the meaning of this
stillness sank to the bottom of my soul like lead
into the water, and made it so heavy that for a second
I wished heartily that the only course left open for
me was to pay for his funeral. Even the law had
done with him. To bury him would have been such
an easy kindness! It would have been so much
in accordance with the wisdom of life, which consists
in putting out of sight all the reminders of our folly,
of our weakness, of our mortality; all that makes
against our efficiency—the memory of our
failures, the hints of our undying fears, the bodies
of our dead friends. Perhaps he did take it too
much to heart. And if so then—Chester’s
offer. . . . At this point I took up a fresh
sheet and began to write resolutely. There was
nothing but myself between him and the dark ocean.
I had a sense of responsibility. If I spoke,
would that motionless and suffering youth leap into
the obscurity—clutch at the straw?
I found out how difficult it may be sometimes to make
a sound. There is a weird power in a spoken word.
And why the devil not? I was asking myself persistently
while I drove on with my writing. All at once,
on the blank page, under the very point of the pen,
the two figures of Chester and his antique partner,
very distinct and complete, would dodge into view with
stride and gestures, as if reproduced in the field
of some optical toy. I would watch them for a
while. No! They were too phantasmal and extravagant
to enter into any one’s fate. And a word
carries far—very far—deals destruction
through time as the bullets go flying through space.
I said nothing; and he, out there with his back to
the light, as if bound and gagged by all the invisible
foes of man, made no stir and made no sound.’