He lingered so strangely and so contentedly over
these words, that I was singularly touched, and I
sat down by his bedside and took his thin white hand
in mine. ‘Doctor,’ said he, presently,
`you have been very good and kind to me now for more
than ten months, and I have learned in that time
to trust and esteem you as though I had known you
for many long years. There are no friends of
mine near me in the world now, for I am a lonely
old man, and before I came here I lived alone, and
I have been lonely almost all my life. But
I cannot die tonight without telling you the story
of my past, and of the days when I used to be young,—very
long ago now,—that you may understand
why I die here alone, a white-haired old bachelor;
and that I may be comforted in my death by the knowledge
that I leave at least one friend upon earth to sympathise
in my sorrow and to bless me in my solitary grave.
‘It is a long story, Doctor,’ said the
little old man, ’but I feel stronger this afternoon
than I have felt for weeks, and I am quite sure I
can tell it all from end to end. I have kept
it many years in my heart, a secret from every human
soul; but now all is over with my sorrow and with
me for ever, and I care not who knows of it after
I am gone.’ Then after a little pause
he told me his story, while I sat beside him holding
his hand in mine, and I think I did not lose a word
of all he said, for he spoke very slowly and distinctly,
and I listened with all my heart. Shall I tell
it to you, Lizzie? It is not one of those stories
that end happily; like the stories we read in children’s
fairy books, nor is it exciting and sensational like
the modern popular novels. There are no dramatic
situations in it, and no passionate scenes of tragical
love or remorse; ’tis a still, neutral-colored,
dreamy bit of pathos; the story of a lost life,—
that it will make you sad perhaps to hear, and maybe,
a little graver than usual. Only that.”
“Please tell it, Dr Peyton,” I answered.
“You know I have a special liking for such
sad histories. ’Tis one of my old-maidish
eccentricities I suppose; but somehow I always think
sorrow more musical than mirth, and I love the quiet
of shadowy places better than the brilliant glow
of the open landscape.”
“You are right, Lizzie,” he returned.
“That is the feeling of the true poet in all
ages, and the most poetical lives are always those
in which the melancholy element predominates.
Yet it is contrast that makes the beauty of things,
and doubtless we should not fully understand the
sweetness of your grave harmonies, nor the loveliness
of your shadowy valleys, were all music grave and
all places shadowy. And inanimate nature is
most assuredly the faithful type and mirror of human
life. But I must not waste our time any longer
in such idle prologues as these! You shall
hear the little old man’s story at once, while
it is still fresh in my memory, though for the matter
of that, I am not likely, I think, to forget it very
easily.” So Dr Peyton told it me as we
sat together there in the growing darkness of the
warm summer night, and this, reader mine, is the story
he told.