is not a province of thought whose deepest depths
I have not tried to fathom; and when I recognized
that it is not given to mortals to apprehend the essence
of the divinity because the organs bestowed on us
are too small and feeble; when I refused to pronounce
whether that which I can not apprehend exists or not,
was that my fault, or theirs? There may be divine
forces which created and govern the universe; but never
talk to me of their goodness, and reasonableness, and
care for human creatures! Can a reasonable being,
who cares for the happiness of another, strew the
place assigned to him to dwell in with snares and
traps, or implant in his breast a hundred impulses
of which the gratification only drags him into an
abyss? Is that Being my friend, who suffers
me to be born and to grow up, and leaves me tied to
the martyr’s stake, with very few real joys,
and finally kills me, innocent or guilty, as surely
as I am born? If the divinity which is supposed
to bestow on us a portion of the divine essence in
the form of reason were constituted as the crowd are
taught to believe, there could be nothing on earth
but wisdom and goodness; but the majority are fools
or wicked, and the good are like tall trees, which
the lightning blasts rather than the creeping weed.
Titianus falls before the dancer Theocritus, the noble
Papinian before the murderer Caracalla, our splendid
Alexander before such a wretch as Zminis; and divine
reason lets it all happen, and allows human reason
to proclaim the law. Happiness is for fools and
knaves; for those who cherish and uphold reason—ay,
reason, which is a part of the divinity—persecution,
misery, and despair.”
“Have done!” Melissa exclaimed.
“Have the judgments of the immortals not fallen
hardly enough on us? Would you provoke them to
discharge their fury in some more dreadful manner?”
At this the skeptic struck his breast with defiant
pride, exclaiming: “I do not fear them,
and dare to proclaim openly the conclusions of my
thoughts. There are no gods! There is no
rational guidance of the universe. It has arisen
self-evolved, by chance; and if a god created it,
he laid down eternal laws and has left them to govern
its course without mercy or grace, and without troubling
himself about the puling of men who creep about on
the face of the earth like the ants on that of a pumpkin.
And well for us that it should be so! Better
a thousand times is it to be the servant of an iron
law, than the slave of a capricious master who takes
a malignant and envious pleasure in destroying the
best!”
“And this, you say, is the final outcome of
your thoughts?” asked Melissa, shaking her
head sadly. “Do you not perceive that such
an outbreak of mad despair is simply unworthy of your
own wisdom, of which the end and aim should be a passionless,
calm, and immovable moderation?”
“And do they show such moderation,” Philip
gasped out, “who pour the poison of misfortune
in floods on one tortured heart?”