worthless precious in their eyes; whereas they once
referred everything to their own desires, they now
referred all to God and His will. Their impulses
were the same as of old, but they kept them within
bounds by a never-sleeping consciousness that they
led, not to joys, but to everlasting punishment.
These regenerate souls learned to contemn the world,
and instead of gazing down at the dust their eyes
were fixed upwards on Heaven. If either of them
tottered, his whole ‘new man’ prompted
him to recover his balance before he fell to the ground.—But
Orion! Your lover? His guilt seems to have
passed over him; he hopes for reunion with God from
a more meritorious life in the world. Not only
is his nature unaltered, but his attitude with regard
to life and to the joys it offers to the children of
this world. Earthly love is spurring him on
to strive for what is noble and great and he earnestly
seeks to attain it; but he will fall over every stone
that the devil casts in his path, and find it hard
to pick himself up again, for misfortune has not led
him to the new birth or the new life in God.
Just such men have I seen, numbers of times, relapsing
into the sins they had escaped from. Before
we can entirely trust a man who has once—though
but once-wandered so far from God’s ways, while
Grace has not yet worked effectually in him, we shall
do well to watch his dealings and course for more
than a few short days. If you still feel that
you must follow the dictates of your heart, at any
rate do not fly into your lover’s open arms,
do not abandon to him the pure sanctuary of your body
and soul, do not be wholly his till he has been fully
put to the proof.”
“But I believe in him entirely!” cried
Paula, with a flood of tears.
“You believe because you love him,” replied
the abbess.
“And because he deserves it.”
“And how long has he deserved it?”
“Was he not a splendid man before his fall?”
“And so was many a murderer. Most criminals
become outcasts from society in a single moment.”
“But society still accepts Orion.”
“Because he is the son of the Mukaukas.”
“And because he wins all hearts !”
“Even that of the Almighty?”
“Oh! Mother, Mother! why do you measure
him by the standard of your own sanctified soul?
How few are the elect who find a share of the grace
of which you speak!”
“But those who have sinned like him must strive
for it.”
“And he does so, Mother, in his way.”
“It is the wrong way; wrong for those who have
sinned as he has. All he strives for is worldly
happiness.”
“No, no. He is firm in his faith in God
and the Saviour. He is not a liar.”
“And yet he thinks he may escape the penalty?”
“And does not the Lord pardon true repentance?—He
has repented; and how bitterly, how fearfully he has
suffered!”
“Say rather that he has felt the stripes that
his own sin brought upon him.—There are
more to come; and how will he take them? Temptation
lurks in every path, and how will he avoid it?
As your mother, indeed it is my duty to warn you:
Keep your passion and yourself still under control;
continue to watch him, and grant him nothing—not
the smallest favor, as you are a maiden, before he.
. .”