the great effort; those who would be truly happy must
be content with small things. That is what makes
children so happy. Apples and pears! Well,
everything will be at an end for me ere long—even
those. But if the great First Cause spares himself
in the universal crash, there is still the grand idea
of Apples and Pears; and who knows but that it may
please Him, when this world is destroyed, to frame
another to come after it. Will He then once
more embody the ideas of Man—and Apples
and Pears? It would be plagiarism from himself.
Nay, if He is merciful, He will never again give
substance to that hybrid idea called Man; or, if He
does, He will let the poor wretch be happy with apples
and pears—I mean trivial joys; for all
higher joys, be they what they may, are vanity and
vexation.... Give me another draught. Ah,
that is good! And to-morrow is the end.
I could find it in my heart to regret the good gifts
of Dionysus myself; it is better than apples and pears;
next to that comes the joy that Eros bestows on mortals,
and there must be an end to all that, too. That,
however, is above the level of apples and pears.
It is great, very great happiness, and mingled therefor
with bitter sorrow. Rapture and anguish—who
can lay down the border line that divides them?
Smiles and tears alike belong to both. And you
are weeping? Aye, aye— poor child!
Come here and kiss me.” Damia drew the
head of the kneeling girl close to her bosom and pressed
her lips to Gorge’s brow. Presently, however,
she relaxed her embrace and, looking about the room,
she exclaimed:
“How you have mixed and upset the book-rolls!
If only I could show you how clearly everything agrees
and coincides. We know now exactly how it will
all happen. By the day after to-morrow there
will be no more earth, no more sky; and I will tell
you this, child: If, when Serapis falls, the
universe does not crumble to pieces like a ruinous
hovel, then the wisdom of the Magians is a lie, the
course of the stars has nothing to do with the destinies
of the earth and its inhabitants, the planets are mere
lamps, the sun is no more than a luminous furnace,
the old gods are marsh-fires, emanations from the
dark bog of men’s minds—and the great
Serapis... But why be angry with him? There
is no doubt—no if nor but ....Give me the
diptychon and I will show you our doom. There—just
here—my sight is so dazzled, I cannot make
it out.—And if I could, what matter?
Who can alter here below what has been decided above?
Leave me to sleep now, and I will explain it all
to you to-morrow if there is still time. Poor
child, when I think how we have tormented you to learn
what you know, and how industrious you have been!
And now—to what end? I ask you, to
what end? The great gulf will swallow up one
and all.”
“So be it, so be it !” cried Gorgo interrupting
her. “Then, at any rate, nothing that
I love on earth will be lost to me before I die!”