His head began to ache sadly; and what an endless time Caesar was absent!  He dreaded his return, and yet he longed for it.  When at last Hadrian came in and signed to Master to relieve him of his imperial robes, Antinous slipped behind him, and silently and carefully fulfilled the slave’s office.  He felt uneasy and worried, and yet he forced himself to appear in good spirits during supper when he had to sit opposite the Emperor.

When, shortly before midnight, Hadrian rose from the table to go up to the watch-tower on the northern side of the palace, Antinous begged to be allowed to carry his instruments for him, and the Emperor, stroking his hair, said kindly: 

“You are my dear and faithful companion.  Youth has a right to go astray now and then so long as it does not entirely forget the path in which it ought to tread.”

Antinous was deeply touched by these words, and he secretly pressed to his lips a fold of the Emperor’s toga as he walked in front.  It was as though he wanted to make amends in advance for the crime he had not yet committed.

Wrapped in his cloak he kept the Emperor silent company during his studies, till the close of the first hour after midnight.  The sharp, north wind which blew through the darkness did his aching head good, and still he racked his wits for some pretext to attract Hadrian from his labors, but in vain.  His tormented brain was like a dried-up well; bucket after bucket did he send down, but not one brought up the refreshing draught he needed.  Nothing—­nothing could he think of that could conduce to his end.  Once he plucked up courage and said imploringly as he went close up to the Emperor:  “Go down earlier to-night my lord; you really do not allow yourself enough rest and will injure your health.”

Hadrian let him speak, and answered kindly: 

“I sleep in the morning.  If you are tired, go to bed now.”

But Antinous remained, gazing, like his master, at the stars.  He knew very few of the brilliant bodies by their names, but some of them were very dear to him, particularly the Pleiades which his father had pointed out to him and which reminded him of his home.  There he had been so quiet and happy, and how wildly his anxious heart was throbbing now!

“Go to bed, the second hour is beginning,” said Hadrian.

“Already!” said the boy; and as he reflected how soon that must be done which Verus had required of him, and then looked up again at the heavens, it seemed to him as though all the stars in the blue vault over his head had glided from their places and were dancing in wild and whirling confusion between the sky and the sea.  He closed his eyes in his bewilderment; then, bidding his master good-night he lighted a torch and by its flaring and doubtful light descended from the tower.