hung. They were all draped in black crape; the
violin of the old master was missing; in its place
was a cypress wreath. I knew what had happened.
“Antonia! Antonia!” I cried, in inconsolabie
grief. The Councillor, with his arms crossed on
his breast, stood beside me, as if turned into stone.
I pointed to the cypress wreath. “When
she died,” said he, in a very hoarse solemn voice,
“when she died, the sound-post of that violin
broke into pieces with a ringing crack, and the sound-board
was split from end to end. The faithful instrument
could only live with her and in her; it lies beside
her in the coffin, it has been buried with her.”
Deeply agitated, I sank down upon a chair, whilst
the Councillor began to sing a gay song in a husky
voice; it was truly horrible to see him hopping about
on one foot, and the crape strings (he still had his
hat on) flying about the room and up to the violins
hanging on the walls. Indeed, I could not repress
a loud cry that rose to my lips when, on the Councillor
making an abrupt turn, the crape came all over me;
I fancied he wanted to envelop me in it and drag me
down into the horrible dark depths of insanity.
Suddenly he stood still and addressed me in his singing
way, “My son! my son! why do you call out?
Have you espied the angel of death? That always
precedes the ceremony.” Stepping into the
middle of the room, he took the violin-bow out of his
sword-belt, and, holding it over his head with both
hands, broke it into a thousand pieces. Then,
with a loud laugh, he cried, “Now you imagine
my sentence is pronounced, don’t you, my son?
but it’s nothing of the kind—not
at all! not at all! Now I’m free—free—
free—hurrah! I’m free! Now
I shall make no more violins—no more violins—hurrah!
no more violins!” This he sang to a horrible
mirthful tune, again spinning round on one foot.
Perfectly aghast, I was making the best of my way
to the door, when he held me fast, saying quite calmly,
“Stay, my student friend, pray don’t think
from this outbreak of grief, which is torturing me
as if with the agonies of death, that I am insane;
I only do it because a short time ago I made myself
a dressing-gown in which I wanted to look like Fate
or like God!” The Councillor then went on with
a medley of silly and awful rubbish, until he fell
down utterly exhausted; I called up the old housekeeper,
and was very pleased to find myself in the open air
again.
I never doubted for a moment that Krespel had become insane; the Professor, however, asserted the contrary. “There are men,” he remarked, “from whom nature or a special destiny has taken away the cover behind which the mad folly of the rest of us runs its course unobserved. They are like thin-skinned insects, which, as we watch the restless play of their muscles, seem to be misshapen, while nevertheless everything soon comes back into its proper form again. All that with us remains thought passes over with Krespel into action. That bitter scorn which the spirit