Simply absurd to wait.  She poured her own cup of tea.  She sat and stared at it.  What was it she was going to do now?  Oh yes; how idiotic; take a lump of sugar.

She didn’t want the beastly tea.

She was springing up.  She was on the couch, sobbing.

II

She was thinking more sharply than she had for weeks.

She reverted to her resolution to change the town—­awaken it, prod it, “reform” it.  What if they were wolves instead of lambs?  They’d eat her all the sooner if she was meek to them.  Fight or be eaten.  It was easier to change the town completely than to conciliate it!  She could not take their point of view; it was a negative thing; an intellectual squalor; a swamp of prejudices and fears.  She would have to make them take hers.  She was not a Vincent de Paul, to govern and mold a people.  What of that?  The tiniest change in their distrust of beauty would be the beginning of the end; a seed to sprout and some day with thickening roots to crack their wall of mediocrity.  If she could not, as she desired, do a great thing nobly and with laughter, yet she need not be content with village nothingness.  She would plant one seed in the blank wall.

Was she just?  Was it merely a blank wall, this town which to three thousand and more people was the center of the universe?  Hadn’t she, returning from Lac-qui-Meurt, felt the heartiness of their greetings?  No.  The ten thousand Gopher Prairies had no monopoly of greetings and friendly hands.  Sam Clark was no more loyal than girl librarians she knew in St. Paul, the people she had met in Chicago.  And those others had so much that Gopher Prairie complacently lacked—­the world of gaiety and adventure, of music and the integrity of bronze, of remembered mists from tropic isles and Paris nights and the walls of Bagdad, of industrial justice and a God who spake not in doggerel hymns.

One seed.  Which seed it was did not matter.  All knowledge and freedom were one.  But she had delayed so long in finding that seed.  Could she do something with this Thanatopsis Club?  Or should she make her house so charming that it would be an influence?  She’d make Kennicott like poetry.  That was it, for a beginning!  She conceived so clear a picture of their bending over large fair pages by the fire (in a non-existent fireplace) that the spectral presences slipped away.  Doors no longer moved; curtains were not creeping shadows but lovely dark masses in the dusk; and when Bea came home Carol was singing at the piano which she had not touched for many days.

Their supper was the feast of two girls.  Carol was in the dining-room, in a frock of black satin edged with gold, and Bea, in blue gingham and an apron, dined in the kitchen; but the door was open between, and Carol was inquiring, “Did you see any ducks in Dahl’s window?” and Bea chanting, “No, ma’am.  Say, ve have a svell time, dis afternoon.  Tina she have coffee and knackebrod, and her fella vos dere, and ve yoost laughed and laughed, and her fella say he vos president and he going to make me queen of Finland, and Ay stick a fedder in may hair and say Ay bane going to go to var—­oh, ve vos so foolish and ve laugh so!”