“Will!” She was not timorous now. “Am I pro-German if I fail to throb to Honest Jim Blausser, too? Let’s have my whole duty as a wife!”
He was grumbling, “The whole thing’s right in line with the criticism you’ve always been making. Might have known you’d oppose any decent constructive work for the town or for——”
“You’re right. All I’ve done has been in line. I don’t belong to Gopher Prairie. That isn’t meant as a condemnation of Gopher Prairie, and it may be a condemnation of me. All right! I don’t care! I don’t belong here, and I’m going. I’m not asking permission any more. I’m simply going.”
He grunted. “Do you mind telling me, if it isn’t too much trouble, how long you’re going for?”
“I don’t know. Perhaps for a year. Perhaps for a lifetime.”
“I see. Well, of course, I’ll be tickled to death to sell out my practise and go anywhere you say. Would you like to have me go with you to Paris and study art, maybe, and wear velveteen pants and a woman’s bonnet, and live on spaghetti?”
“No, I think we can save you that trouble. You don’t quite understand. I am going—I really am—and alone! I’ve got to find out what my work is——”
“Work? Work? Sure! That’s the whole trouble with you! You haven’t got enough work to do. If you had five kids and no hired girl, and had to help with the chores and separate the cream, like these farmers’ wives, then you wouldn’t be so discontented.”
“I know. That’s what most men—and women—like you would say. That’s how they would explain all I am and all I want. And I shouldn’t argue with them. These business men, from their crushing labors of sitting in an office seven hours a day, would calmly recommend that I have a dozen children. As it happens, I’ve done that sort of thing. There’ve been a good many times when we hadn’t a maid, and I did all the housework, and cared for Hugh, and went to Red Cross, and did it all very efficiently. I’m a good cook and a good sweeper, and you don’t dare say I’m not!”
“N-no, you’re——”
“But was I more happy when I was drudging? I was not. I was just bedraggled and unhappy. It’s work—but not my work. I could run an office or a library, or nurse and teach children. But solitary dish-washing isn’t enough to satisfy me—or many other women. We’re going to chuck it. We’re going to wash ’em by machinery, and come out and play with you men in the offices and clubs and politics you’ve cleverly kept for yourselves! Oh, we’re hopeless, we dissatisfied women! Then why do you want to have us about the place, to fret you? So it’s for your sake that I’m going!”
“Of course a little thing like Hugh makes no difference!”
“Yes, all the difference. That’s why I’m going to take him with me.”
“Suppose I refuse?”
“You won’t!”
Forlornly, “Uh——Carrie, what the devil is it you want, anyway?”