THE CREED OF A SAVOYARD PRIEST

My child, do not look to me for learned speeches or profound arguments.  I am no great philosopher, nor do I desire to be one.  I have, however, a certain amount of common-sense and a constant devotion to truth.  I have no wish to argue with you nor even to convince you; it is enough for me to show you, in all simplicity of heart, what I really think.  Consult your own heart while I speak; that is all I ask.  If I am mistaken, I am honestly mistaken, and therefore my error will not be counted to me as a crime; if you, too, are honestly mistaken, there is no great harm done.  If I am right, we are both endowed with reason, we have both the same motive for listening to the voice of reason.  Why should not you think as I do?

By birth I was a peasant and poor; to till the ground was my portion; but my parents thought it a finer thing that I should learn to get my living as a priest and they found means to send me to college.  I am quite sure that neither my parents nor I had any idea of seeking after what was good, useful, or true; we only sought what was wanted to get me ordained.  I learned what was taught me, I said what I was told to say, I promised all that was required, and I became a priest.  But I soon discovered that when I promised not to be a man, I had promised more than I could perform.

Conscience, they tell us, is the creature of prejudice, but I know from experience that conscience persists in following the order of nature in spite of all the laws of man.  In vain is this or that forbidden; remorse makes her voice heard but feebly when what we do is permitted by well-ordered nature, and still more when we are doing her bidding.  My good youth, nature has not yet appealed to your senses; may you long remain in this happy state when her voice is the voice of innocence.  Remember that to anticipate her teaching is to offend more deeply against her than to resist her teaching; you must first learn to resist, that you may know when to yield without wrong-doing.

From my youth up I had reverenced the married state as the first and most sacred institution of nature.  Having renounced the right to marry, I was resolved not to profane the sanctity of marriage; for in spite of my education and reading I had always led a simple and regular life, and my mind had preserved the innocence of its natural instincts; these instincts had not been obscured by worldly wisdom, while my poverty kept me remote from the temptations dictated by the sophistry of vice.

This very resolution proved my ruin.  My respect for marriage led to the discovery of my misconduct.  The scandal must be expiated; I was arrested, suspended, and dismissed; I was the victim of my scruples rather than of my incontinence, and I had reason to believe, from the reproaches which accompanied my disgrace, that one can often escape punishment by being guilty of a worse fault.