And, as with clothes, so with his actual surroundings.  Each detail of his room was familiar, but not one had ever become intimately close.  He had used the place for years, but he had used it as he might use a hotel; and whatever of his household gods had come with him remained, like himself, on sufferance.  His entrance into Chilcote’s surroundings had been altogether different.  Unknown to himself, he had been in the position of a young artist who, having roughly modelled in clay, is brought into the studio of a sculptor.  To his outward vision everything is new, but his inner sight leaps to instant understanding.  Amid all the strangeness he recognizes the one essential—­the workshop, the atmosphere, the home.

On this first night of return Loder comprehended something of his position; and, comprehending, he faced the problem and fought with it.

He had made his bargain and must pay his share.  Weighing this, he had looked about his room with a quiet gaze.  Then at last, as if finding the object really sought for, his eyes had come round to the mantel-piece and rested on the pipe-rack.  The pipes stood precisely as he had left them.  He had looked at them for a long time, then an ironic expression that was almost a smile had touched his lips, and, crossing the room, he had taken the oldest and blackest from its place and slowly filled it with tobacco.

With the first indrawn breath of smoke his attitude had unbent.  Without conscious determination, he had chosen the one factor capable of easing his mood.  A cigarette is for the trivial moments of life; a cigar for its fulfilments, its pleasant, comfortable retrospections; but in real distress—­in the solving of question, the fighting of difficulty—­a pipe is man’s eternal solace,

So he had passed the first night of his return to the actualities of life.  Next day his mind was somewhat settled and outward aid was not so essential; but though facts faced him more solidly, they were nevertheless very drab in shade.  The necessity for work, that blessed antidote to ennui, no longer forced him to endeavor.  He was no longer penniless; but the money, he possessed brought with it no desires.  When a man has lived from hand to mouth for years, and suddenly finds himself with a hundred pounds in his pocket, the result is sometimes curious.  He finds with a vague sense of surprise that he has forgotten how to spend.  That extravagance, like other artificial passions, requires cultivation.

This he realized even more fully on the days that followed the night of his first return; and with it was born a new bitterness.  The man who has friends and no money may find life difficult; but the man who has money and no friend to rejoice in his fortune or benefit by his generosity is aloof indeed.  With the leaven of incredulity that works in all strong natures, Loder distrusted the professional beggar —­therefore the charity that bestows easily and promiscuously was denied him; and of other channels of generosity he was too self-contained to have learned the secret.