you are weary, or busy; but you cannot find it in your
heart to cast a shadow of disappointment on the eager
little faces that come and ask you. You have
to stop writing many a time, in the middle of a sentence,
to open your study door at the request of a little
voice outside; and to admit a little visitor who can
give no more definite reason for her visit than that
she has come to see you, and tell you she has been
a good girl. And all this is well for you It
breaks in hour by hour upon your native selfishness.
And it cosfs you not the slightest effort to give
up your own wish to that of your child. Even
if to middle age you retain the innocent taste for
sweetmeats, would you not have infinitely greater pleasure
in seeing your little boy or girl eating up the contents
of your parcel, than in eating them yourself?
It is to me a thoroughly disgusting sight to see,
as we sometimes do, the wife and children of a family
kept in constant terror of the selfish bashaw at the
head of the house, and ever on the watch to yield in
every petty matter to his whims and fancies.
Sometimes, where he is a hard-wrought and anxious
man, whose hard work earns his children’s bread,
and whose life is their sole stay, it is needful that
he should be deferred to in many things, lest the
overtasked brain and overstrained nervous system should
break down or grow unequal to their task. But
I am not thinking of such cases. I mean cases
in which the head of the family is a great fat, bullying,
selfish scoundrel; who devours sullenly the choice
dishes at dinner, and walks into all the fruit at
dessert, while his wife looks on in silence, and the
awe-stricken children dare not hint that they would
like a little of what the brutal hound is devouring.
I mean cases in which the contemptible dog is extremely
well dressed, while his wife and children’s
attire is thin and bare; in which he liberally tosses
about his money in the billiard-room, and goes off
in autumn for a tour on the Continent by himself,
leaving them to the joyless routine of their unvaried
life. It is sad to see the sudden hush that falls
upon the little things when he enters the house; how
their sports are cut short, and they try to steal away
from the room. Would that I were the Emperor
of Russia, and such a man my subject! Should
not he taste the knout? Should not I make him
howl? That would be his suitable punishment:
for he will never feel what worthier mortals would
regard as the heavier penalty by far, the utter absence
of confidence or real affection between him and his
children when they grow up. He will not mind that
there never was a day when the toddling creatures
set up a shout of delight at his entrance, and rushed
at him and scaled him and searched in his pockets,
and pulled him about; nor that the day will never come
when, growing into men and women, they will come to
him for sympathy and guidance in their little trials
and perplexities. Oh, woful to think that there
are parents, held in general estimation too, to whom
their children would no more think of going for kindly
sympathy, than they would think of going to Nova Zembla
for warmth!