Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

“Then I’d better go away,” she said.  “I ought to have gone long ago.”

“Why?” he cried.  “Why?  What’s your reason?  Why do you want to ruin my life?  You’ve—­you’ve woven yourself into it—­you’re a part of it.  I never knew what it was to care for a woman before, I tell you.  There’s that mill,” he repeated, naively.  “I’ve made it the best mill in the country, I’ve got the biggest order that ever came to any mill—­if you went away I wouldn’t care a continental about it.  If you went away I wouldn’t have any ambition left.  Because you’re a part of it, don’t you see?  You—­you sort of stand for it now, in my mind.  I’m not literary, I can’t express what I’d like to say, but sometimes I used to think of that mill as a woman—­and now you’ve come along—­” Ditmar stopped, for lack of adequate eloquence.

She smiled in the darkness at his boyish fervour,—­one of the aspects of the successful Ditmar, the Ditmar of great affairs, that appealed to her most strongly.  She was softened, touched; she felt, too, a responsive thrill to such a desire as his.  Yet she did not reply.  She could not.  She was learning that emotion is never simple.  And some inhibition, the identity of which was temporarily obscured still persisted, pervading her consciousness....

They were crossing the bridge at Stanley Street, now deserted, and by common consent they paused in the middle of it, leaning on the rail.  The hideous chocolate factory on the point was concealed by the night,—­only the lights were there, trembling on the surface of the river.  Against the flushed sky above the city were silhouetted the high chimneys of the power plant.  Ditmar’s shoulder touched hers.  He was still pleading, but she seemed rather to be listening to the symphony of the unseen waters falling over the dam.  His words were like that, suggestive of a torrent into which she longed to fling herself, yet refrained, without knowing why.  Her hands tightened on the rail; suddenly she let it go, and led the way toward the unfrequented district of the south side.  It was the road to Silliston, but she had forgotten that.  Ditmar, regaining her side, continued his pleading.  He spoke of his loneliness, which he had never realized.  He needed her.  And she experienced an answering pang.  It still seemed incredible that he, too, who had so much, should feel that gnawing need for human sympathy and understanding that had so often made her unhappy.  And because of the response his need aroused in her she did not reflect whether he could fulfil her own need, whether he could ever understand her; whether, at any time, she could unreservedly pour herself out to him.

“I don’t see why you want me,” she interrupted him at last.  “I’ve never had any advantages, I don’t know anything.  I’ve never had a chance to learn.  I’ve told you that before.”

“What difference does that make?  You’ve got more sense than any woman I ever saw,” he declared.

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