Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,366 pages of information about Project Gutenberg Complete Works of Winston Churchill.

“To the Club,” I said.

My room was ready, my personal belongings, my clothes had been laid out, my photographs were on the dressing-table.  I took up, mechanically, the evening newspaper, but I could not read it; I thought of Maude, of the children, memories flowed in upon me,—­a flood not to be dammed....  Presently the club valet knocked at my door.  He had a dinner card.

“Will you be dining here, sir?” he inquired.

I went downstairs.  Fred Grierson was the only man in the dining-room.

“Hello, Hugh,” he said, “come and sit down.  I hear your wife’s gone abroad.”

“Yes,” I answered, “she thought she’d try it instead of the South Shore this summer.”

Perhaps I imagined that he looked at me queerly.  I had made a great deal of money out of my association with Grierson, I had valued very highly being an important member of the group to which he belonged; but to-night, as I watched him eating and drinking greedily, I hated him even as I hated myself.  And after dinner, when he started talking with a ridicule that was a thinly disguised bitterness about the Citizens Union and their preparations for a campaign I left him and went to bed.

Before a week had passed my painful emotions had largely subsided, and with my accustomed resiliency I had regained the feeling of self-respect so essential to my happiness.  I was free.  My only anxiety was for Nancy, who had gone to New York the day after my last talk with her; and it was only by telephoning to her house that I discovered when she was expected to return....  I found her sitting beside one of the open French windows of her salon, gazing across at the wooded hills beyond the Ashuela.  She was serious, a little pale; more exquisite, more desirable than ever; but her manner implied the pressure of control, and her voice was not quite steady as she greeted me.

“You’ve been away a long time,” I said.

“The dressmakers,” she answered.  Her colour rose a little.  “I thought they’d never get through.”

“But why didn’t you drop me a line, let me know when you were coming?” I asked, taking a chair beside her, and laying my hand on hers.  She drew it gently away.

“What’s the matter?” I asked.

“I’ve been thinking it all over—­what we’re doing.  It doesn’t seem right, it seems terribly wrong.”

“But I thought we’d gone over all that,” I replied, as patiently as I could.  “You’re putting it on an old-fashioned, moral basis.”

“But there must be same basis,” she urged.  “There are responsibilities, obligations—­there must be!—­that we can’t get away from.  I can’t help feeling that we ought to stand by our mistakes, and by our bargains; we made a choice—­it’s cheating, somehow, and if we take this—­what we want—­we shall be punished for it.”

“But I’m willing to be punished, to suffer, as I told you.  If you loved me—­”

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