We had a large Sewing Circle, young and old alike attending.  I really cannot say I ever enjoyed the meetings—­at least not up to that time—­although I went religiously because I thought it my duty to go.  The married women talked so much of their husbands and children, and of course I had to be quiet on those topics; and the young girls talked in corner groups about their beaux, and stopped it when I joined them, as if they felt sure that an old maid who had never had a beau couldn’t understand at all.  As for the other old maids, they talked gossip about every one, and I did not like that either.  I knew the minute my back was turned they would fasten into me and hint that I used hair-dye and declare it was perfectly ridiculous for a woman of fifty to wear a pink muslin dress with lace-trimmed frills.

There was a full attendance that day, for we were getting ready for a sale of fancy work in aid of parsonage repairs.  The young girls were merrier and noisier than usual.  Wilhelmina Mercer was there, and she kept them going.  The Mercers were quite new to Avonlea, having come here only two months previously.

I was sitting by the window and Wilhelmina Mercer, Maggie Henderson, Susette Cross and Georgie Hall were in a little group just before me.  I wasn’t listening to their chatter at all, but presently Georgie exclaimed teasingly: 

“Miss Charlotte is laughing at us.  I suppose she thinks we are awfully silly to be talking about beaux.”

The truth was that I was simply smiling over some very pretty thoughts that had come to me about the roses which were climbing over Mary Gillespie’s sill.  I meant to inscribe them in the little blank book when I went home.  Georgie’s speech brought me back to harsh realities with a jolt.  It hurt me, as such speeches always did.

“Didn’t you ever have a beau, Miss Holmes?” said Wilhelmina laughingly.

Just as it happened, a silence had fallen over the room for a moment, and everybody in it heard Wilhelmina’s question.

I really do not know what got into me and possessed me.  I have never been able to account for what I said and did, because I am naturally a truthful person and hate all deceit.  It seemed to me that I simply could not say “No” to Wilhelmina before that whole roomful of women.  It was too humiliating.  I suppose all the prickles and stings and slurs I had endured for fifteen years on account of never having had a lover had what the new doctor calls “a cumulative effect” and came to a head then and there.

“Yes, I had one once, my dear,” I said calmly.

For once in my life I made a sensation.  Every woman in that room stopped sewing and stared at me.  Most of them, I saw, didn’t believe me, but Wilhelmina did.  Her pretty face lighted up with interest.

“Oh, won’t you tell us about him, Miss Holmes?” she coaxed, “and why didn’t you marry him?”