years. I cannot say that externally she looked
worn or broken. I had imagined that I should
see her undone with her great troubles, but to some
extent, and yet not altogether, I was mistaken.
The cheek-bones were more prominent than of old,
and her dark-brown hair drawn tightly over her forehead
increased the clear paleness of the face; the just
perceptible tint of colour which I recollect being
now altogether withdrawn. But she was not haggard,
and evidently not vanquished. There was even
a gaiety on her face, perhaps a trifle enforced, and
although the darkness of sorrow gleamed behind it,
the sorrow did not seem to be ultimate, but to be
in front of a final background, if not of joy, at
least of resignation. Her ancient levity of manner
had vanished, or at most had left nothing but a trace.
I thought I detected it here and there in a line
about the mouth, and perhaps in her walk. There
was a reminiscence of it too in her clothes.
Notwithstanding poverty and distress, the old neatness—that
particular care which used to charm me so when I was
little more than a child, was there still. I
was always susceptible to this virtue, and delicate
hands and feet, with delicate care bestowed thereon,
were more attractive to me than slovenly beauty.
I noticed that the gloves, though mended, fitted
with the same precision, and that her dress was unwrinkled
and perfectly graceful. Whatever she might have
had to endure, it had not destroyed that self-centred
satisfaction which makes life tolerable.
I was impelled at once to say that I had to beg her
pardon for asking her there. Unfortunately I
was obliged to go over to Cowston, a village which
was about three miles from the town. Perhaps
she would not mind walking part of the way with me
through the meadows, and then we could talk with more
freedom, as I should not feel pressed for time.
To this arrangement she at once agreed, and dropping
her thick veil over her face, we went out. In
a few minutes we were clear of the houses, and I began
the conversation.
“Have you been in the habit of teaching?”
“No. The necessity for taking to it has
only lately arisen.”
“What can you teach?”
“Not much beyond what children of ten or eleven
years old are expected to know; but I could take charge
of them entirely.”
“Have you any children of your own?”
“One.”
“Could you take a situation as resident teacher
if you have a child?”
“I must get something to do, and if I can make
no arrangement by which my child can live with me,
I shall try and place her with a friend. I may
be able to hear of some appointment as a daily governess.”
“I should have thought that in your native town
you would have been easily able to find employment—you
must be well known?”
There was a pause, and after a moment or so she said:-