His wife and he cared nothing for one another, but
she was jealous to the last degree. I never
saw such jealousy. It was strange that, although
she almost hated him, she watched him with feline sharpness
and patience, and would even have killed any woman
whom she knew had won his affection. He, on
the other hand, openly avowed that marriage without
love was nothing, and flaunted without the least modification
the most ideal theories as to the relation between
man and woman. Not that he ever went actually
wrong. His boyish education, his natural purity,
and a fear never wholly suppressed, restrained him.
He exasperated people by his impracticability, and
it must be acknowledged that it is very irritating
in a difficult complexity demanding the gravest consideration—the
balancing of this against that—to hear
a man suddenly propose some naked principle with which
everybody is acquainted, and decide by it solely.
I came to know him through M’Kay, who had known
him for years; but M’Kay at last broke out against
him, and called him a stupid fool when he threw up
a handsome salary and refused to serve any longer
under a house which had always treated him well, because
they, moving with the times, had determined to offer
their customers a cheaper description of goods, which
Cardinal thought was dishonest. M’Kay said,
and said truly, that many poor persons would buy these
goods who could buy nothing else, and that Cardinal,
before yielding to such scruples, ought to satisfy
himself that, by yielding, he would not become a burden
upon others less fanciful. This was just what
happened. Cardinal could get no work again for
a long time, and had to borrow money. I was
sorry; but for my part, this and other eccentricities
did not disturb my confidence in him. He was
an honest, affectionate soul, and his peculiarities
were a necessary result of the total chaos of a time
without any moral guidance. With no church, no
philosophy, no religion, the wonder is that anybody
on whom use and wont relax their hold should ever
do anything more than blindly rove hither and thither,
arriving at nothing. Cardinal was adrift, like
thousands and hundreds of thousands of others, and
amidst the storm and pitchy darkness of the night,
thousands and hundreds of thousands of voices offer
us pilotage. It spoke well for him that he did
nothing worse than take a few useless phantoms on
board which did him no harm, and that he held fast
to his own instinct for truth and goodness. I
never let myself be annoyed by what he produced to
me from his books. All that I discarded.
Underneath all that was a solid worth which I loved,
and which was mostly not vocal. What was vocal
in him was, I am bound to say, not of much value.