it was so in Taylor’s case. I believe
that he would have been patient under any inevitable
ordinance of nature, but he could not lie still under
contempt, the knowledge that to those about him he
was of less consequence than the mud under their feet.
He was timid and, after his failure as a shopkeeper,
and the near approach to the workhouse, he dreaded
above everything being again cast adrift. Strange
conflict arose in him, for the insults to which he
was exposed drove him almost to madness; and yet the
dread of dismissal in a moment checked him when he
was about to “fire up,” as he called it,
and reduced him to a silence which was torture.
Once he was ordered to bring some coals for the messenger’s
lobby. The man who gave him the order, finding
that he was a long time bringing them, went to the
top of the stairs, and bawled after him with an oath
to make haste. The reason of the delay was that
Taylor had two loads to bring up—one for
somebody else. When he got to the top of the
steps, the messenger with another oath took the coals,
and saying that he “would teach him to skulk
there again,” kicked the other coal-scuttle down
to the bottom. Taylor himself told me this; and
yet, although he would have rejoiced if the man had
dropped down dead, and would willingly have shot him,
he was dumb. The check operated in an instant.
He saw himself without a penny, and in the streets.
He went down into the cellar, and raged and wept
for an hour. Had he been a workman, he would
probably have throttled his enemy, or tried to do
it, or what is more likely, his enemy would not have
dared to treat him in such fashion, but he was powerless,
and once losing his situation he would have sunk down
into the gutter, whence he would have been swept by
the parish into the indiscriminate heap of London
pauperism, and carted away to the Union, a conclusion
which was worse to him than being hung.
Another of our friends was a waiter in one of the
public-houses and chop-houses combined, of which there
are so many in the Strand. He lived in a wretched
alley which ran from St. Clement’s Church to
Boswell Court—I have forgotten its name—a
dark crowded passage. He was a man of about
sixty—invariably called John, without the
addition of any surname. I knew him long before
we opened our room, for I was in the habit of frequently
visiting the chop-house in which he served.
His hours were incredible. He began at nine o’clock
in the morning with sweeping the dining-room, cleaning
the tables and the gas globes, and at twelve business
commenced with early luncheons. Not till three-quarters
of an hour after midnight could he leave, for the
house was much used by persons who supped there after
the theatres. During almost the whole of this
time he was on his legs, and very often he was unable
to find two minutes in the day in which to get his
dinner. Sundays, however, were free. John
was not a head waiter, but merely a subordinate, and