together. My mother was stunned, and never completely
recovered. I have seen her, forty years after
George Butts’ wedding-day, lift up her hands,
and have heard her call out with emotion, as fresh
as if the event were of yesterday, “What made
that girl have George I can not think—but
there!” What she meant by the last two words
we could not comprehend. Many of her acquaintances
interpreted them to mean that she knew more than she
dared communicate, but I think they were mistaken.
I am quite certain if she had known anything she must
have told it, and, in the next place, the phrase “but
there” was not uncommon amongst women in our
town, and was supposed to mark the consciousness of
a prudently restrained ability to give an explanation
of mysterious phenomena in human relationships.
For my own part, I am just as much in the dark as
my mother. My father, who was a shrewd man,
was always puzzled, and could not read the riddle.
He used to say that he never thought George could have
“made up” to any young woman, and it was
quite clear that Miss Leroy did not either then or
afterwards display any violent affection for him.
I have heard her criticise and patronise him as a
“good soul,” but incapable, as indeed
he was, of all sympathy with her. After marriage
she went her way and he his. She got up early,
as she was wont to do, and took her Bible into the
fields while he was snoring. She would then very
likely suffer from a terrible headache during the
rest of the day, and lie down for hours, letting the
house manage itself as best it could. What made
her selection of George more obscure was that she
was much admired by many young fellows, some of whom
were certainly more akin to her than he was; and I
have heard from one or two reports of encouraging
words, and even something more than words, which she
had vouchsafed to them. A solution is impossible.
The affinities, repulsions, reasons in a nature like
that of Miss Leroy’s are so secret and so subtle,
working towards such incalculable and not-to-be-predicted
results, that to attempt to make a major and minor
premiss and an inevitable conclusion out of them would
be useless. One thing was clear, that by marrying
George she gained great freedom. If she had
married anybody closer to her, she might have jarred
with him; there might have been collision and wreck
as complete as if they had been entirely opposed; for
she was not the kind of person to accommodate herself
to others even in the matter of small differences.
But George’s road through space lay entirely
apart from hers, and there was not the slightest chance
of interference. She was under the protection
of a husband; she could do things that, as an unmarried
woman, especially in a foreign land, she could not
do, and the compensatory sacrifice to her was small.
This is really the only attempt at elucidation I can
give. She went regularly all her life to chapel
with George, but even when he became deacon, and “supplied”