in her body for him? Over and over again I have
heard him offer some criticism on a person or event,
and the customary chime of approval would ensue, provoking
him to such a degree that he would instantly contradict
himself with much bitterness, leaving poor Mrs. M’Kay
in much perplexity. Such a shot as this generally
reduced her to timid silence. As a rule, he always
discouraged any topic at his house which was likely
to serve as an occasion for showing his wife’s
dependence on him. He designedly talked about
her household affairs, asked her whether she had mended
his clothes and ordered the coals. She knew that
these things were not what was upon his mind, and
she answered him in despairing tones, which showed
how much she felt the obtrusive condescension to her
level. I greatly pitied her, and sometimes, in
fact, my emotion at the sight of her struggles with
her limitations almost overcame me and I was obliged
to get up and go. She was childishly affectionate.
If M’Kay came in and happened to go up to her
and kiss her, her face brightened into the sweetest
and happiest smile. I recollect once after he
had been unusually annoyed with her he repented just
as he was leaving home, and put his lips to her head,
holding it in both his hands. I saw her gently
take the hand from her forehead and press it to her
mouth, the tears falling down her cheek meanwhile.
Nothing would ever tempt her to admit anything against
her husband. M’Kay was violent and unjust
at times. His occupation he hated, and his restless
repugnance to it frequently discharged itself indifferently
upon everything which came in his way. His children
often thought him almost barbarous, but in truth he
did not actually see them when he was in one of these
moods. What was really present with him, excluding
everything else, was the sting of something more than
usually repulsive of which they knew nothing.
Mrs. M’Kay’s answer to her children’s
remonstrances when they were alone with her always
was, “He is so worried,” and she invariably
dwelt upon their faults which had given him the opportunity
for his wrath.
I think M’Kay’s treatment of her wholly
wrong. I think that he ought not to have imposed
himself upon her so imperiously. I think he
ought to have striven to ascertain what lay concealed
in that modest heart, to have encouraged its expression
and development, to have debased himself before her
that she might receive courage to rise, and he would
have found that she had something which he had not;
not his something perhaps, but something which
would have made his life happier. As it was,
he stood upon his own ground above her. If she
could reach him, well and good, if not, the helping
hand was not proffered, and she fell back, hopeless.
Later on he discovered his mistake. She became
ill very gradually, and M’Kay began to see in
the distance a prospect of losing her. A frightful
pit came in view. He became aware that he could