“We were a week working up as far as Yarmouth Roads, and then we got into a gale—­the famous October gale of twenty-two years ago.  It was wind, lightning, sleet, snow, and a terrific sea.  We were flying light, and you may imagine how bad it was when I tell you we had smashed bulwarks and a flooded deck.  On the second night she shifted her ballast into the lee bow, and by that time we had been blown off somewhere on the Dogger Bank.  There was nothing for it but go below with shovels and try to right her, and there we were in that vast hold, gloomy like a cavern, the tallow dips stuck and flickering on the beams, the gale howling above, the ship tossing about like mad on her side; there we all were, Jermyn, the captain, everyone, hardly able to keep our feet, engaged on that gravedigger’s work, and trying to toss shovelfuls of wet sand up to windward.  At every tumble of the ship you could see vaguely in the dim light men falling down with a great flourish of shovels.  One of the ship’s boys (we had two), impressed by the weirdness of the scene, wept as if his heart would break.  We could hear him blubbering somewhere in the shadows.

“On the third day the gale died out, and by-and-by a north-country tug picked us up.  We took sixteen days in all to get from London to the Tyne!  When we got into dock we had lost our turn for loading, and they hauled us off to a tier where we remained for a month.  Mrs. Beard (the captain’s name was Beard) came from Colchester to see the old man.  She lived on board.  The crew of runners had left, and there remained only the officers, one boy, and the steward, a mulatto who answered to the name of Abraham.  Mrs. Beard was an old woman, with a face all wrinkled and ruddy like a winter apple, and the figure of a young girl.  She caught sight of me once, sewing on a button, and insisted on having my shirts to repair.  This was something different from the captains’ wives I had known on board crack clippers.  When I brought her the shirts, she said:  ’And the socks?  They want mending, I am sure, and John’s—­Captain Beard’s—­things are all in order now.  I would be glad of something to do.’  Bless the old woman!  She overhauled my outfit for me, and meantime I read for the first time Sartor Resartus and Burnaby’s Ride to Khiva.  I didn’t understand much of the first then; but I remember I preferred the soldier to the philosopher at the time; a preference which life has only confirmed.  One was a man, and the other was either more—­or less.  However, they are both dead, and Mrs. Beard is dead, and youth, strength, genius, thoughts, achievements, simple hearts—­all dies . . . .  No matter.